Thursday, April 8, 2010

5 tantrum tactics

Some of you may be aware that we live with a diva. I’m not proud. I don’t know how two reasonably intelligent adults who both grew up in relatively normal households could breed a monster who looks remarkably like a cute, little five-year-old girl. But we have.

I justified it to myself by saying that many mothers of five-year-old girls have told me about their whining monsters. True. But if all of the other mothers jumped off a bridge… (Although, sometimes the diva makes me want to jump off a bridge.)

So we sought help. Professional help. I’m not ashamed. I’ll admit it. I don’t know if we were out of our depth or if we just needed someone to put it to us in straightforward terms. Regardless, we got advice. And one of the things we were instructed to do was to wait out a tantrum. Don’t get angry. Don’t threaten or cajole or plead. Simply ignore it.

Miss Diva tried many tactics to try and win over my attention with her negative behaviour. Here are five:

1. I’m hungry. “I’m hungry” quickly turned into “I’m starving” which soon was “I’m starving to death” and then “I’m going to die if I don’t get some food.” (This from the girl who turned her nose up at scrambled eggs a mere two minutes beforehand.) This tactic, by the way, came back at the end, (after “I wanna talk to Daddy” – see #5) with an “I’m starving like an animal who never, ever gets to eat” reprisal.

2. I need a tissue. Really, I thought “I have to go pee” would precede any other requests pertaining to bodily functions, the diva knowing how I usually jump at the mere mention of pee. What can I say? She surprised me. Or perhaps she was a little off her game this morning. You know, being on the verge of death due to starvation and all.

3. I need to throw this tissue in the garbage. Okay, I giggled a little at this one. Quietly, of course.

4. I need my teddy bear. Thirty seconds before this tactic she had started to quiet down to the point where I had my mouth open to tell her to come out (I was only waiting for ten seconds of silence) when the teddy bear whining started up. So close!

5. I wanna talk to Daddy. This one was my fault. At the thirty minute mark (Yes, I said thirty minutes. Of a tantrum.) I decided to give hubby a call. In a shift from the norm, it wasn’t to gripe however. It was just to give a cheerful update on the status of events, i.e. that the new sheriff was in town and she had started throwing people in the clink, uh, I mean, time out. Anyway, as soon as she heard the phone the “I wanna talk to Daddy” song started, complete with a chorus of “I wanna tell him all about how this happened.”

There were a couple more tactics. Worth mentioning are “I wanna go to my room,” and “I wanna go to school,” two places she normally is loathe to go. The whole thing lasted 55 minutes. Oh yes. Our little diva is nothing if not stubborn.

Hm. I wonder where she gets that from? Perhaps from her mother. Who lasted the 55 minutes. And did not give in. *Cue triumphant and thunderous applause*

Day one of the new sheriff in town: Mama 1. Diva 0.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

5 impossible kid questions

1. How high can you count? I have never been very good at math. If I had the time to sit around and just count, how high could I go? How many billions in a trillion? What comes after trillion? Is zillion a real number?

2. What’s this song all about, Mom?
(Max, asking about “Mr. Brightside” by the Killers).

Me: Well, it’s about a guy who likes a girl but she likes another guy.
Max: Why does she like another guy?
Me: I don’t know. She just does.
Max: Why doesn’t he find another girl to like?
Me: He just likes her. He doesn’t want to find another one.
Max: Why is he in a cage?
Me: Ummmmmm …

3. Why does the sun follow us everywhere we go? I tried the “it’s really big,” “it’s not really following us” stuff. At three years old, this explanation does not satisfy. It’s big, it’s yellow, I’m looking out the car window and I can see it following me. Everywhere. Why does it do that?

4. Is it tomorrow today? Who knew existentialism would be something that came up in conversation with a five year old? Try answering this: “No, it’s tomorrow tomorrow,” and you’ll get: “Then will it be tomorrow?” So you may say: “No, then tomorrow will be tomorrow,” and after fifteen minutes I’m fairly certain you can reach enlightenment in much the same way as is possible after pondering the Zen koan, “What is the sound of one hand clapping?”

5. What’s the opposite of peanut butter? Um, jam? No peanut butter? Bread?

Sunday, March 28, 2010

5 things I’ve learned about life from going to the gym

I’ve had a tough four months. I won’t bore you with all the gory details. I’ll just say that I’ve had the emotional wind knocked out of me more times than I care to think about.

Through it all I continued to work out. This is in stark contrast to the fair-weather work out style I normally have. Normally there’s an I-have-to-be-in-a-bikini-in-three-months panic that propels me into a frenzy of lunges, jumping jacks and bicep curls, which I then abandon the moment the weight has been lost and the bikini wearing has occurred.

But around this time last year I started going to a gym. And I found that keeping in shape on a regular basis is not only healthier physically but mentally as well.

And lucky for me that, when this emotional storm hit, I had this routine established. It turned out to be a life saver. When my heart hurt so badly it felt like it might burst, when my head spun from being unable to stop thinking about all the torment, for an hour I could go and transfer that pain into beneficial physical activity. And thanks to the wisdom of some awesome gym instructors, I started to notice that some of the principles of working out can be applied to facing many challenges in life. Here are five of them.

1. Moments of discomfort build strength.
As I’m lamenting the hurt in my heart while trying to focus on step class one day, I suddenly pick up on something Heather, the ultimate step class instructor, is saying: “Moments of discomfort help to build the heart’s strength. And we all want strong hearts.” Or when Tammy, strong and sensible Power instructor, says during the squat routine: “Get down, go to the bottom. Know you’re going to be there for a while. It’s not supposed to be easy but this is how we build strength.” Something shifts in my brain and I realize that there’s a reason why I’m going through this right now.

2. You’ve always got more than you think.
Often when we’re towards the end of Step class and I feel like I just can’t go on, just can’t summon the energy for one more move, Heather reminds us to “empty the tank.” “You’ve always got more than you think,” she says. And I recognize that, when I think positively, what I think I cannot endure becomes possible. I dig deep and somehow find that as-yet-untapped source.

3. It won’t last forever.
When we start on the intense cardio portion of Step class, I push myself hard and I start to wonder if I can keep it up. “It won’t be for long,” Heather says, “so while we’re here give it everything you’ve got.” My heart eases in the knowledge that, like this cardio burst, the pain can’t last forever. One day it’ll be a memory.

4. Open your heart.
After working and pushing myself beyond my perceived limits, Tammy leads the class in stretching. “Look up,” she says, “spread your arms wide and open your heart.” I need this reminder. Although I may be tired, I may want to lie down, curl up in a ball, shut everyone away, I understand the importance of standing, holding my head high, and not closing my broken heart. But to open it. Arms wide. Heart open.

5. Leave time for stillness.
Then the calm and wise Sue, yoga goddess, reminds us that there is a time to work to make our bodies stronger, and there’s a time for stillness. I lay in the darkened room on my mat and appreciate the quiet in my mind, sigh and feel my body let go, as my mind finally empties. Rejuvenation.

These days when I walk out of the gym it’s not just with the calm satisfaction of having physically pushed myself, but also with mental clarity. A sense of peace.

Moments of discomfort are for a reason. Don’t ignore them. Embrace them. They’ll make the heart stronger.

It won’t last long.

So I’m going to give it everything I’ve got.